Im Wrong since 2005!

Mayb im really wrong since 2005. i shldn't hav try to b her friend frm den. mayb i shld try date her out frm den... thx for been a great friend? damm can't she tell i dun wanna stay as juz friends? dun mix up friends and lover? friend stay and share, lover come and go? she nvr let me try how she noe we will really will b come and go? i believe i will b tht lover who stay and share...sometime i dun understand...all my hardwork... all my waiting really dun move her alittle? or mayb she juz dun wanna let me try...

when i see a letter coming wif tht gift i already know wats inside tht letter. mayb i juz too understand her...

mayb im not juz a lonely man, but a lonely failer...


sign off,
Lonely-Failer.

Signing off lonely taicho,

12:13 am

NSF's Life

Well im abt a year Soldier... guess abt to use to life in airforce. this morning my Sergeant called my HP(is a noe noe nth good) when im at murai camp for flying duty. Telling me is this friday im on duty coz say wat malaysia may att singapore due to we win dunno wat lighthouse... kns got a talk for ard an hour(well i think is better to call it a fight) so damm pass off wif his last few words. "he this is army, welcome to army." haha i think im the only fuker who will talk back. "sorry this is Airforce. my Army life is over." hahaa.... feeling damm good to talk back to him lah... can tell how fuk up he is right? coz his the only Sgt tht i will talk back =x after his call i call my game buddy to change duty wif him sweet i juz love life in Airforce nice friends nice buddy and Nice Sergeant(other then tht fuk up sgt :p ) thing get easy when u got friends :)

Be4 u ask for a hand, u got to show up ur hand to others 1st... thts how lifes work

Signing off lonely taicho,

8:53 pm

Any1 willing 2 take over my friday duty?
Pass few days sth wrong wif me. i called a person who i nvr heard her voice for abt a year... i tot some1 was trying 2 play wif me sms me say thts her new number, so i did call to make sure. guess wat, her voice still so sweet, so sweet tht when i heard it everything in my mind seem gone for a sec... dun really wanna ask for too much i juz wish i can heard tht voice for alittle longer but i think i end up nth to say to her mayb thts wat happen when u too long nvr chat. i tot i will hav like unfinish words to say, unfinish feeling to tell... all the miss i hav in this 1 year to tell her... but i end up saying "well mayb i call u back next time?" sometimes i really feel like killing myself.

Well... so got to meet her on friday i guess. but funny is i got the last duty of the mth on tht day... lol out of all day but tht day... guess got 2 ask some1 to help me take over duty lor... i always help them i think if i ask for help shldn't b a prob xD(well juz hope)... but i did hav a bad feeling for it... i feel tht this mayb the last time in my life to see her...(juz hope this feeling wasnt true)


may god be by my side...

(come to think abt it... which god will b on my side? im a free thinker :p)

Signing off lonely taicho,

12:30 am

Stay In For 3Days 3Nites!!

lol its the 1st time i stay in so long in camp... 3days 3nites... it start on the last day of april, 30april when to camp at 4am as my friend play me, call me and tell me UAV drop all driver report to camp in 1hr time(frm 3am+) well out of so many ppl he call im the only one go back =.= found out tio play i juz slp in camp till 8am to report at Air Base. den got a detail need me to send officer for a meeting and the fuking meeting end so fuking late end at 8pm... o man my working hr is 8am to 5pm leh... so after parking back to murai camp its ard 8.40pm my friend saw me ask me along to sing K in the mass till morning as next day is 1st may P.Hoilday so we ask afew ppl down... (coz i got duty in 1st may so i join them xD)thts how i start staying in the 1st nite... as duty on 010508 there fly my P.Hoilday. there gose the 2nd nite of stay in. next day start work again till nite my friend jio me go sing K again coz is friday nite sat no work... den i tio pull there wifout noeing y... sat morning i run home be4 my friend woke up as i scare they still pull me go other places... thts how the staying in of 3days 3nites gose... so sad xD

sian this mth so many duty!!! I WANNA ORD!!!

Signing off lonely taicho,

7:22 pm